The Beginning

I love the first of January, the significance of starting anew, leaving (or at least attempting) old habits behind, testing new ones, but most importantly, moving forward.

It’s so easy to take advantage of time and forget how much has changed within a year.

A year ago, if you had told me I was going to be living in New York City, meeting and working with some of the most incredibly talented people in the world; I would have slapped your face in for playing with my emotions and making fun of my dreams like that.

I really do believe if you truly want something so bad, God/ the Universe/ whatever you believe in will open the doors and clear the roads for you. It’s just up to you to decide what the next move is.

It’s just amazing how hard it is to be an optimist in this world, you have cynics every where. I remember on my formspring I had some people making fun of me calling myself an actress because I hadn’t “been in anything.”

When I was younger, I would have thought “making it” meant being on the covers of magazines and it all the box office hits but now I know it means having talent and being respected by your peers, even the rest of the world has no clue who you are.

That’s all I want now, to be happy concentrating and doing what I love. If you want to knock me for it, that’s fine but at the end of the day, you do you and I’ll do me.

My New Year’s Resolutions:

The Overall Year Ones:

1. The usual: Lose weight
Only doing it properly; eating right, working out more, & keeping the curves I love.

Starting weight: 122 lbs
Goal weight: 110 lbs
Extra Credit Goal: 105 lbs

[Melanie Iglesias is totally my thinspiration *sigh*]

2. Blog more!!
At least once a week. I miss writing and I want to do things a little different then I did before. All the blogs I love do the “Outfits of the Day” but I have to wear a uniform for Sephora & all black for See so my clothes are always nondescript haha so I’m actually going to do “Makeup Of the Day” since I get to experiment everyday.

3. Be more responsible:
Schedule in my calendar, learn to budget, and just stop being lazy! This city and time do not wait for anyone!

4. Pray more.
I honestly feel like there are so many blessings in my life and I’m not thanking the Lord enough 😦

5. Stay in touch more with my family & loved ones.
I’m horrible at this and I need to be better at it…

The “Fun” Ones:

1. Buy my first Louboutins (on my own penny)

2. Learn how to put fake lashes on, by myself, fluidly & perfectly

3. Finally try my first Laudree macaroons

4. Read again, one book a month

5. Give people a reason to remember my name….


Words can not describe how proud I am of my cousin, Asif, who made his television debut last week on NBC’s “Up All Night”. It’s incredible to see where his career as a comedian and actor has taken him. It seems like yesterday I would get dragged to watch him perform at Zanies (which he always killed, it was sitting through the DOA comedians’ sets I hated) and now he’s working alongside Maya Rudolph and Christina Applegate! *heart swell*

He played an applicant who was being interviewed to replace a really aloof assistant to Maya Rudoplh’s Oprahesque character on the show.

I know it’s only onwards up from here on out!

And of course, I just had to make screencaps of his performance. You can check out my wittle cutie baby cousin make his tv debut on Hulu!!

You can also follow him on Twitter and Facebook!

I’m home in North Carolina for the week because my grandfather passed away on Thursday. I’ve been on a roller coaster of emotions of tears and laughs because my mom and her sisters keep telling us the most amazing stories about him. I am just so blessed and thankful to be his granddaughter. He was just a simple government accountant but he did his best to live right from saving what he could to help dig wells to making sure widows received their rightful pensions. My grandfather wasn’t a politician, famous, or even rich, but he was a king.

I’m really going to miss him…


[I took this picture the first week of October when my grandfather had been admitted into the hospital,(he later recovered and came home). At the time, the doctors had us (his visiting family members) suit up in gowns and gloves because of MRSA. God bless, he didn’t contract it and he was able to come home to pass away. Little did I know, this would be the last time I would get to hold his hand. My grandfather passed away painlessly & content. I know that I’ve accepted his death, it’s just the absence I’m going to have trouble getting use to…]